All of a sudden I am 29. Not old, not middle aged, still young with my whole life ahead of me. At least thats what people tell me. I would do well not to take life for granted and presume that I will die of old age.
I have a fantastic job. I am a home daycare provider. I have 5 children under the age of 3 that I care for, therefore my house is CRAZY!!!! I love the children like they are my own, and although there are many challenges as they all seem to be going through the terrible two's at the same time right now, I am showered with precious moments every day. When a child walks, talks, dances, laughs, makes a wonderful craft all on their own. Just priceless events that I am privileged to bare witness to.
Here's the thing. I am not mentally stimulated by my job WHAT SO EVER!!!! This is a real problem for me. I work at home, drop off and pick up my kids for school, put every meal on the table and I am my own boss. Also the money is fantastic. But this just simply isn't enough.
Child care is not my calling. Shockingly, everyone I knows thinks I am amazing at my job and that I am a natural.
It doesn't do well for a person to count the days till the weekend starting at 730am Monday morning. Second week in January and all of a sudden its nearly the end of July. Life goes far to quickly when you are on constant countdown.
Don't take this wrong. I do not hate my job, not in the slightest, but I have a fire of passion burning inside of me which is dying to get out and be used to light me up from the inside out. I need to find my place in the world by unleashing this in a place where I can thrive and excel. Where I can truly be what I want to be not who I have become.
Now where and what this career is, is beyond me. Let my journey of discovery commence!
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